Expectation is the root of (my) suffering.

The root of all suffering is attachment. [Second Noble Truth]

I bumped up against Buddhism at a formative time in my life, and the Four Noble Truths made an impression on me that I’ve never quite shaken.

Over and over again, I come up against the Second Noble Truth. Attachment to things and attachment to expectations just eat my lunch.  I get caught up in what I WANT to happen, what I EXPECT to happen, and I get angry and scared when life doesn’t work out that way.  Rather than see the beauty and possibility in what is really happening, I get blinded by my own emotional response.

I’m working on it.  I can at least, now, most of the time, see that I’m reacting and that I don’t like the reaction.  I’m trying to get to the place where I can remember that I don’t like feeling that way BEFORE I react.  I’m trying to find myself in the pause and make a conscious decision about what to do rather than reflexively going straight to anger.

It’s a work in progress.  Maybe one day I’ll get there.  Even if I don’t, hopefully I’ll get better along the way.

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What leads to suffering in your life? How do you respond to it?

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