I bumped up against Buddhism at a formative time in my life, and the Four Noble Truths made an impression on me that I’ve never quite shaken.
Over and over again, I come up against the Second Noble Truth. Attachment to things and attachment to expectations just eat my lunch. I get caught up in what I WANT to happen, what I EXPECT to happen, and I get angry and scared when life doesn’t work out that way. Rather than see the beauty and possibility in what is really happening, I get blinded by my own emotional response.
I’m working on it. I can at least, now, most of the time, see that I’m reacting and that I don’t like the reaction. I’m trying to get to the place where I can remember that I don’t like feeling that way BEFORE I react. I’m trying to find myself in the pause and make a conscious decision about what to do rather than reflexively going straight to anger.
It’s a work in progress. Maybe one day I’ll get there. Even if I don’t, hopefully I’ll get better along the way.
What leads to suffering in your life? How do you respond to it?