Behold, the power of blogs! One of the reasons I blog is to get things out of my head; yesterday was one of those days. Thank you all for your comments — some days it’s just too much to handle on my own. Those days, I really appreciate being able to lean on you and let someone else hold my hope for me.
Adrienne wants to know what I would be if I wasn’t an engineer. Honestly, I’m not really sure. When I was in high school, I wanted to be an accountant. I would have done so (and minored in history) if my father hadn’t convinced me that I could do the same thing as an engineer. Liar, liar, pants on fire! I do nothing that even resembles accounting these days. I do get to do research and consulting though, so it makes up for it.
But if I had my choice, any choice, I would probably still be a professional student. I love being in school, I love reading, I love the immediate positive feedback from grades and assignments. And it really doesn’t matter the subject — history, science, engineering, psychology, and math all hold their attractions for me. It would be a dream for me to be a full-time student with someone else paying the bills and letting me focus on my studies. Even though I’m stuck going part-time and having to work full-time, I am looking forward to having a PhD. I’m hoping that with my experience and research funding I’ll be able to get a teaching position in an engineering department somewhere in the region.
Another option would be being a museum docent. I volunteered in a local museum in high school and occasionally led tours, and I really enjoyed that. Again, lots of learning/history/science all rolled into one job. I’ve also fantasized about going back to medical school and studying to be an RE, but that’s just a pipe dream. I cannot handle blood, so there’s no way I’d ever make it through basic medical courses, much less be able to perform any kind of procedure on someone.